About time I got my act togather

It is Tuesday and middle of oktober, Not a bed day in itself but my week startet almost as bad as a week can start. I had gotten a pretty bad cold, had been fighting against it all weekend but there was no getting away from it. It had come over me with full force and the only thing I could do was to live with it. So I did my best! My wee angle was sick aswell so I called gran who said she would look after him when I needed to go to work in the afternoon.
So I headed out to the shops to buy some lunch for us and then I cooked lunch. It ended up with blood all over the kitchen and two bandaged fingers. I was a bit shaken up as it was quite deep cuts. But I decided that my work colleages would help me bandage this, so I should be able to work. But I never got to work. I had a bike accident on my way to work and ended up in the emergency rooms and got sent home on crutches with a weirdly sprained ancle. So now Im at home on a tuesday and gran has taken my wee angle out to play. Cant take him down the stairs with two crutches so she was more than willing to help. I hope the rest of the week will be better and that I will soon be able to return to work. "sigh"

VAB (Vård av barn)

Vård av Barn - It basically means looking after a sick child. And today I had my first VAB day. My wee man woke up around 5 am and he was burning up. Took the temp and it was 39,5 degrees. Poor thing. Didnt help that summer is here in full force and the flat is warm warm warm. So there was only one thing I could do. I picked my wee man up and startet walking around the flat with him and quietly singing. He soon calmed down but would not let go off my neck. I quickly made the decision that there would be no official work for me today and that my day would be spent with my little angel in the ERGO walking around the flat. So we have had a warm day in the flat with all the curtains drawn to try to keep the heat and sun out.
Tomorrow is my better halfs first VAB day. Hope he will appriciate this part of our social system as much as I did today. It is great to be able to be there for your child when they feel sick and need you the most.

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I do realise that with my last post I have forgotten my new positive me..... Sorry about that but will try to see the positive side of the sun.
My friends are happier.... and that will make me happier.
I knew I could do it

Måste man glädja sig för solen

Alla som jag pratar med är så himla glada därför att det är sol!!!!! Varför måste man vara glad för solen. Den är varm, obekväm för ögonen och man måste skydda sina småttingar från den. Den är bara besvärlig. Ju det är roligt att det är varmt så jag kan ha på mig sandaler men måste solen vara framme oxå. Kan det inte vara lagom varmt utan sol????
Jag älskar regnet. Jag tycker det är så gott med regn, specielt utländskt regn (då menar jag regn utan vind som händer aldrig på Island). Men jag kan oxå glädja mig för riktigt isländskt regn som kommer från alla håll och kantar och slår mig i andsiktet. Det är lätt att skydda sig genom att ta på sig regnkläder. Kan inte få cancer från regn. Det är få creepy-crawlies ute och njuter av regnet så de kommer inte och sticker eller biter mig.
Ska snart köra nä till affären i min bil som kommer att vara minst 30 grader varm och stor handla. Min lilleman kommer inte att vara nöjd med detta men det måste göras. Skulle vara så mycket bättre om det var regn.

Lonely or being by yourself

Sometimes I think Im lonely! But I have come to realise that it is not the right description of what Im feeling. Because Im not lonely. My life is filled to the brim with wonderful people that I know all over the world. And sometimes I love being by myself. I crave it. The other morning when I was so so so tired and my better half said to me. Sleep, Ill take Bjarki. It was so nice and I slept for a while, and when I woke up, I heard that they were on their way out so I stayed in bed until I could get out of bed and be by myself in the flat. Eat breakfast and take a shower and just do normal morning things by myself. It was great!
So no Im not lonely. I meet people all the time and I know I can call people up if I need to talk. I dont really know a good english word for it but in swedish you say "sällskapssugen" I just want some company.
This evening I have been at home with my wee man. Im feeling a bit sällskapssugen but so what. I am going to brush my teeth and then lie down next to my wonderful son and fall asleep. Because there is no company that can match that. His little hand that claps my cheek to make sure that Im there next to him.

The thing about smiling

Im still absolutely decided on smiling my way through this summer though it is not always easy.
Ive had a few lapses in my smile campaign but Im not going to be beeten by people who worry too much or only see the negative side of everything.
Today I signed myself up for 2 extra shifts this summer. We need more people to work but dont have more people. Or if we dont have the money to hire in more people. It is absolutely rediculous. How can the management think that we will provide good health services if we are so tired that we loose our smiles.
Well I have decided that it is good with 2 extra shifts because I get a bit more money and I get to spend more time with my great new co-workers and meet more wonderful elderly patients on my ward.

Hope you can all se the bright sight of life. If you cant straight away. Look a bit harder. It is there.

To smile

Been thinking a lot about how we behave towards each other. People talk abot how good it was before when you could always rely on others for a smile and a helping hand.
So my new motto in life is to smile as much as I can. Ok, the people whom I pass in the hospital corridors do look strangely at me, but then I have at least something to laugh about. And today I did a good deed.
I helped an elderly woman with her shopping. She had taken the bus home from the shops and thought she would manage to carry her shopping all the way home but it was gettin tough for her. She stood resting on the path when I walked passed her so I decided to offer my help. And Im glad I did. I put her shopping on the pram and we walked to her house and she got a chance to talk a bit. Sounded like she needed to talk about all her ailments. And Im happy to carry shopping and listen if it makes another person happy. And...... It make me a bit happier too.